Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21
I'm right now looking at the new set for the new program for the new year... It's pretty sweet, I think. I begin to picture kids standing at the game console, I can almost see the lights flashing and hear the laughter as Max relates some bit of wisdom disguised as humor... I begin to get excited - almost. I consider the opportunity that lies before me in the coming year, the countless children to whom I will speak this year, the songs we will begin to sing in just a couple of weeks that I don't even know... and it's no longer excitement I feel.
I feel immensely unqualified as I consider the huge amount of work that remains to be done and my poor stewardship in the "time" department that leaves me scrambling every year at this time. I am ridiculously behind in my paperwork. There is much writing to be done. There are props to be made, letters to be written - I have thank you notes from November I haven't written yet and it's nearly February already! Not to mention the kids need my help with school, the house is a mess, and there's laundry to be done! My husband is feeling neglected, my kids are feeling neglected, even the dogs are feeling neglected! I can't even take the time to call my friends and see how things are going with them!
I am overwhelmed. I am overwhelmed that the Lord would entrust me with such an important job as sharing His Word with others, when I do such a poor job at all the other things He's given me to do. Why put ME in such a position? I know lots of people who do a fantastic job of juggling multiple responsibilities, who are ORGANIZED, who get up early and do their work with an efficiency I cannot begin to fathom...
So as I work myself into a frenzy, sitting with my feet tangled in cables that need to be wound up and put away, surrounded by stuff to be loaded into the trailer today, all of it covered in sawdust that needs to be cleaned off - and it's already 9:30...!!! A still small voice gently points me back to Ephesians... words recorded by Paul... a simply profound message to ME from the Creator of the Universe... "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine..."
I am reminded again that it is not about ME, or my abilities, or even the lack thereof. It is about what HE is able to do - which is more than I can ask or imagine!
And so I find it is not the task that is overwhelming after all. It is the power and love of God that leaves me at once feeling both overwhelmed and at peace. He's got it under control!
...Just a thought...
